Day Without 2P

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新的穷，绝望，痛苦，无目标的未来。

“我还是非常爱她！”

我终于发现到我已经没有笑容了。
我只有悲伤与痛苦的经验，还有我梦不到我的未来。
我以前想的很远，就是现在梦也梦不到我的未来。
我也知道愚笨，对，错，什么的事情都是有根源和理由。
对我来说，快乐是唯一世上最美妙与奇迹的事情。
面对什么困难，笑一笑什么事情都会决解；可是，一旦没了笑容，什么事情都会难倒我。
我的生命就于我的金一样；当金没了，我的生命也就此结束。

现在，只想说声对不起。

告辞。

这次是我用华语来写完整个一天的经历。吃好午餐之后，上网。跟她聊天在网上。她邀请我一起吃，可是我已经吃了。 过后她跟我拿插头。我很开心见到她，又可以听她的声音。可是，我却没看到她的正面，只看到她的背面。

今天下很大的雨。我走去外面打算搭车去十四区。当我走出去时，我一直又一直在回想以前和她的事。跟她开玩笑，有时还在笑她的雨伞，担心她在雨中的时候，一直又一直回想起。我逼我自己不要去想，那些记忆却一直呈现在我的脑海里。

我真的很糟糕。一天比一天更糟。我还以为如果我天天去电脑店上网，我可以不想以前的事。可是，我却一直在想“不要去cyber,很浪费钱啊.".这是他给我的忠告.不管我做什么,我就是在想;不管我怎样不要想,那个记忆就遍遍呈现.除了我睡觉,我就没想.可是当我发梦时,我却梦到她还跟我在一起.可是我知道这只是个梦.

我很想她再次回到我身边,很想她再次叫我一声’老公’,'kiddy’. 虽然,我知道不可能了. 我还是再希望,希望她会再回来. 以前我不会再希望明知道不会成功,可是我现在还是希望.

我还打算要打给她的,跟她讲我非常想你. 可是我却在半途中停,因为我知道她不喜欢.过后,我又再打给她. 跟她讲一些话让我觉得自己很糟糕.终于,讲完了.在同一个时间,我知道她很讨厌或不爽为什么我还烦着她.

我真的很痛苦.非常地痛苦. 神啊,请你救我吧!

Today I went to utar pa block to buy bus ticket. Waited for so long then the dept of finance open. During my waiting, there is Uncle asking me some sort of thing abt utar in cantonese. I reply him in cantonese as well. This is the 1st time I reply n also succeed finish all the conversation in cantonese. After that i play internet in pa internet lab, Very cold inside. Nearly freezing. Finish up my surfing time, I go out n saw parents n their kids asking abt thing in utar. The staff seem dun knw abt the utar bus, or another road to utar pd block when they discuss abt the utar bus route.

I walk to pd block and then juz knw that DSA is closed today. Haiz, even the lift is not working. I have to go up n down by using staircase.

After having my lunch in mamak stall outside pd, i go back home. Really very sweety n tired after arrived home. I also saw my phone is back. Can use. (^.^)

Started to think everything making sence around me. I m destined to b alone no mater wat. To be wif my lappie n my hammie aka ManMan.

Wasted like rm7 for cyber cost. Realy sucks using my 3g. Even now i using 3g to update my blog.

Today nearly late to work. Actually oready late due to the bus suddenly stop at PB so long. I today learn abt new printer called Leviotte (forgot the name). Its also a bankbook printer. I also learn abt dot-matrix printer. Tat printer so big, inside so many 灰尘, n the stucture so complex.

Today I saw a girl in the Internet Lab. Her face look juz like 1 of my mapler fren in real life. Same dark skin, long hair. She also surf lowyat.net forum.

And on lunch time, I also late go back to work. I started my 1st task of repair on my own. Hard but I manage to do it eventough its stil failure even I after work.

I found out tat actualy my work not so Sien mayb excpt for repair the same type of printer over n over again. Mayb my task can upgrade to repair laptop after my repair on printer finish. Tis job actually is 粗工, ned many strenght to lift up a printer on my own. I very happy wif tis job actually. I feel that I can do job inside n outside of computer.

After work, dark n raining outside. I feel a litle worried. So, I mesage 2P to be careful on her way back home. I also tell her that I wont interfere her relationship as well.

Once I arive home, I saw the splitter LED on my home doesnt light on. OMG! The phone is not working. Probably due to the heavy storm that is currently happening here now. I will be calling Telekom 2mrw if tis matter stil continue.

Going to Cyber now becoz my 3G oways dc. C u 2mrw.

Today is my training day. I m so happy n actually a litle scared. I wake up due to the cold weather. I call my boss once I enter the CSA (my workplace). My boss say that he is on leave n i will be guide by other ppl. Once I enter my training place, the 1st impression is Wah. This place is full of printer n laptop. All is need to be repair n send bk to the customer. I been tought how to deassemble n reassemble back a printer call Passbook printer n given a guidebook abt it. Its actually a printer that used in every banks to print the bank book.

After I read the book for half an hour, I start to feel sleepy. Mayb is becoz yesterday too late sleep. I in awake n slp condition in almost for 1 n half hours. OMG! I sleep in my 1st day of my training. Cant do tis anymore start from 2mrw. (=.=)

I having lunch in 1230pm n i meet some of my coursemate. After my lunch, I given a task to reassemble the printer. I used nearly 1 hours to finish even it is an easy task. I also use comp on my desk to online.

I saw 2P online. I ask her wat she do. She saying that she key-in info in table. I Still very miss her. Hope she dun too stress no matter wat happen.

Today really Sien till tired. No liang moi in my new place. Sad. Must sleep early tonite to prevent today incident for happening again.

Today go to UTAR n bought Bread n Soya Bean as my breakfast. I think back last time when I n 2P buy our breakfast in canteen for the last 2 semester in UTAR.

Hope her training can 顺顺利利. I sms her abt the loan fund closing date. Hope she apply the fund before the date.
I tought that today orientation would be 热闹 but when I arrived. Its like normal holiday time.

Checking my public bank money and still no PTPTN or the deposit. But the DSA say tat the PTPTN may come in mid JAN. I really hope it is true n hope my 1st loan will out no matter how is my result.

2mrw start my training n i worried abt the training report. 2008 is a new year for me n my result will become flying colors (^.^)

终于，我可以打中文字在我的电脑。可是，我比较喜欢使用英文字因为我已经习惯使用英文了。

Today very late to wake up. Even I wake up I feel 迷糊. Telekom worker come today for the phone install n it cost me RM145. Really big cost for me since now I started to become poor n the money eater always come eat my money away. (>.<)

The deposit for my last room rental n ptptn still havent come. I m in need of money n they seem to "play" me. Even my 3G is so slow n always dc (mayb is becoz i havent pay last month bill)

Tonite mayb slp early becoz of nothing to do beside slp.

Sien!!!

Yesterday wake up with the hope of my houselord has back, but he didnt. I today go to 1u with 2P n some of my other friends. We go seperate ways since the parking is hard to find. 1st, I have tought that mayb we can eat togther so I go Giant 1st to buy my formal shirt, pants and my fan. During my shopping, I got a call from 2P stated that v shopping till end then call them. Haiz. If I know like this, I would go eat 1st then shopping in Giant. Me havent eat for whole day already n stil wan "play" me. After finish shopping I found out that 2P is still "avoid" me n not smile to me no matter wat I do or didnt do. I still confuse why she behave like tat.
After I go back, I found out that the houselord has back but the deposit will bank-in to me in next few days. Zzz. I ned pay my deposit in my new room also. Start bath after move all my thing to new room. Then go to my fren hse n starting to go Sungai Wang for countdown. I found out that 2P is avoid me no matter what. I didnt do anything also avoid me. SHe doing this will onli make me, her n her new bf sad onli. All are friends but y ned to become like tis?
During monorail entrance, my TnG card seem make some misunderstand n make me know a girl. She is cute, nice, study in KTAR Setapak, Diploma and she also go to Sungai Wang for meeting up her fren for Countdown. I found out that she from KTAR becoz my TnG card is wif the same design n I bought from Wangsa Maju LRT last time. Regret becoz forgot to take her number.
The Countdown in Sungai Wang fun. Got many artist, or I dun knw them is realy artist perform in the stage. Many soda spray, hon sold on the spot. I also being sprayed once. Very sweet n it cause me to bath 2nd time in a day.
I countdown alone in KL Central McDonald. I have think carefully n then I decide to sms 2P. But no matter what, tis problm will cause a wreck in both her love relationship n her friendship wif me.
Juz hope that she can changed herself before it was too late.
3G is slow compare to Streamyx. I now using 3G online n its so slow. Mayb is because of the weather condition.
3am now n I start to write an e-mail to 2P abt the problem we facing. Now feel sleepy. Tonite will be a long sleep for me since today countdown so tired.
See u 2mrw.